2012/12/22

2012/12/12

  • Hi you all!

    I have been transferred to a readaptation hospital on Dec 7. I should be there until Jan 15, more or less. This is the first time I have access to internet since Sept 3. My left arm and hand still don’t work and may not for quite some time. Tough times ahead when I return home, and I have to type with one finger which is a drag and very time consuming. I have to go, they are closing where the computers are. I’ll try to post something more later.

    Bye for now. I miss you all and miss posting.

    add-on: I unprotected the protected posts. No need for it anymore. I can also refer my friend from Budapest and others to come here. It saves the trouble to explain it all again, considering my typing limitations.

2012/11/04

  • A new message from Gilbert for you:

    Saturday November 3rd

    Thank you all for your support which I appreciate dearly.

    The bacteria that I had to fight has been dealt with for some time now, maybe 3 to 4 weeks. My surgeon says they used the best antibiotic in the world. The problem now is dealing with the side effects. These include loss of use (like frozen) for my left hand and left forearm. The fingers of the hand are very slowly coming back to life. It could take months. Also, I can’t walk without help except for very short distances, like from the bed to the toilet, but that progress is recent. But even then someone walking next to me remains essential, in case I would fall. I lost 11 to 12 kilos (about 26 to 30 pounds).

    I also have a thoracic drain which is scheduled to be replaced next Thursday and under full anesthesia again, with something not external. This means no more external tube and pouch to collect undesired fluids. I am also connected to an oxygen source 24 hours a day.

    Thank God I’m right handed. (…) but even if it works, the end of my fingers on the right hand are a little numb. For even handwriting this is hard so this will probably need to be translated or reviewed in person let’s say, with Friend. I just hope I can read myself when he comes tomorrow

    BTW, today is the 2 months anniversary of arriving here, September 3. And they won’t even offer me a glass of wine with their crappy hospital food dinner

    All this to say that my communication possibilities with you are very limited. What I miss also is reading your own blogs. WI-FI is planned for most Montreal hospitals but it will be too late for me. It wouldn’t change anything for editing (try doing CTRL-ALT-Something with only one hand ) but I could at least surf on the Net.

    I don’t know when I will be able to post again but it could be a while and next time I hope I will talk about something else then me

2012/10/27

  • A small message from the hospital

    I’m “Friend”. I will post you a message from Gilbert, he is still in hospital and he has no access to internet.

    Surviving

    Dear Friends,

    I didn’t give news before because I couldn’t. I’ve been in Hospital since September 3rd. The operation of September 4th went well but a few days after, an infection of unknown nature came in. They had to operate me again like 1 week after but it only worsened things up. It came to the point that they had to put me in forced coma to stabilized me to fight the infection.

    That’s a small message from Gilbert, I know, but time to came back from the provocate coma took almost 5 days, then, time to recuperate a few took very long time also. Right now, he still far to be ready to leasve the hospital and perhaps a third operation will be necessary. They are waiting to him to get some force and to see how goes his progression.

    I will print the messages you could address to him and he will write you back.

    We all hope some good significative developments in the next few weeks.

    Thank you

    Friend.

2012/09/02

  • Protected post –

    Update:

    I saw the surgeon on Friday, as planned. Saw is about what it was. Not a very talkative man. I had to prong him to get any information. The bad news, it is indeed malignant or, oh! the horrible word, cancer. The good news, it’s been found quite early and the chances of recurrence are quite low (says he). Since they already know it’s cancer, they won’t have to do a biopsy during the operation which means less time under anesthesia which for me is a plus. They will go straight to the point and chop off the bottom section of the lung where the intruder set up its tent and it should be it. I don’t care to know much more at this point.

    There’s a general freak-out about the word “cancer” (tumor is so much more a likeable word ) so this comforts me in my decision to not having my family involved. They are not here and can’t do anything about the situation besides reminding me of it, one by one, something which I’m not interested in at all. I’ll tell them of course, in due time, probably when I’ll be back home and all the emotional stuff will be, hopefully, behind me. And it will have saved them all the worries.

    I don’t remember if I mentioned this earlier but Friend lost his mother also from lung cancer last year, when I was in Mexico. He does bring me lots of comfort but I don’t want to ask too much from him, like hospital visits and the likes, for understandable reasons. My take is that he doesn’t necessarily care to be confronted again too close with this kind of ordeal. He didn’t say so, he’s rather secretive on these things, but I can tell. Or maybe I can’t, he often surprises me.

    Which brings me to this point: The fact that I had this place here where I could come and talk about it all has been for me a great source of relief and has permitted me to handle this situation the way I did, and successfully up until now. I will be forever grateful to you all.

    Seems I’ll be the first operated-upon of the day on Tuesday since they want me to sleep there on the 3rd. They will call me sometime tomorrow to tell me at what time I must report at the hospital, and other relevant information.

    Other posts if any until then will be about other things. Like I said from the start I want to get this out of my mind the most I can.

2012/09/01

  • A Photo
    “Camilienne” – Square St-Louis

    Scènes de Montréal – Montreal Scenes

    Above

    A Camilienne. A vespasienne by its original name. A public men’s urinal, originally. The name vespasienne would come from Roman emperor Vespasian who I think was the first to make these available. Now those which still exist in Montreal are used for other purposes, like flower shops or other uses. A great deal of them were built during the Big Depression in the early thirties, when Camilien Houde was mayor of Montreal. That’s why they were known “affectionately” as camiliennes. Houde was very popular as mayor, although a little fascist on the sides. He was jailed four years in a concentration camp by the feds during WWII, because of his opposition to conscription, and also his support of ‘catholic’ Italy. That only helped to turn him into a legend.

    Tomatoes

    As planned, Friend and I did our yearly batch of tomato sauce today. As last year, we did 1½ mannes. A manne is a local produce volume measurement which I explained in posts from previous years and don’t have the time to re-explain right now besides saying it may be like one bushel. Last year it yielded 69 250ml jars, this year 73. One half manne yields about 24, depending on the number of rejected tomatoes. I got a scare when I bought them on Tuesday because they were maturing way too fast. You can tell because they exhale a lot of ethylene and you can’t not smell it. I closed the blinds to prevent the sun to come in that room and had a fan blowing on them for two days and it worked to stop the maturing process.

    We started at 12h30 and finished at 19h20. A seven hour job. Lots of work (and subsequent clean-up) but it did not prevent the kid in the eldest of the two to make again a slight fool of himself with a few tomatoes.

    Siding with the traditional salt and pepper shakers, there’s a «Jean qui pleure Jean qui rit» (John who cries John who laughs), a French expression coined by Voltaire and usually represented by two theater masks, one smiling, one sad.

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    The American Presidential Race

    Self explanatory.

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    Cartoon © BADO, Le Droit (Ottawa) – July 24

    The Quebec Election Race

    The weirdest election campaign in a very long time, in the foosteps of this Spring’s events, will find its conclusion on Tuesday evening. Would be too long to explain it all (and vaguely non-interesting for non-Canadians) so I’ll just say that polls show that the current Liberal government, in power since 2003, is in for big vacations. According to polls also, the separatist Parti Québécois is expected to form the next one, although maybe not with a majority. And there’s a new kid on the block, the CAQ (Coalition Avenir Québec) which is a right-wing party like the Liberals, but since it’s a newcomer, swears to fight the corruption installed by the former, plus slashing in government services. I say Canadians are interested because they dread the election of the Parti Québécois. I voted last Sunday in the advanced polls.

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    Cartoon © Garnotte, Le Devoir – Sept 1

    Bavarian blues

    I tried some of that Gran Bavarese blue cheese I bought the other day. Rather ordinary but could be worse. Slightly creamy. Didn’t find any trace of factory-floor aftertaste though.

    Continental divide

    We (that includes just about most Canadians I have to say) had a good laugh when I was back east having nothing to do but reading such silly news (because of the lousy weather).

    First, this letter to the editor of the Calgary Herald by a visiting Michigan police officer:

    I recently visited Calgary from Michigan. As a police officer for 20 years, it feels strange not to carry my off-duty hand-gun. Many would say I have no need to carry one in Canada.
    Yet the police cannot protect everyone all the time. A man should be allowed to protect himself if the need arises. The need arose in a theatre in Aurora, Colo., as well as a college campus in Canada.
    Recently, while out for a walk in Nose Hill Park, in broad daylight on a paved trail, two young men approached my wife and me. The men stepped in front of us, then said in a very aggressive tone: “Been to the Stampede yet?”
    We ignored them. The two moved closer, repeating: “Hey, you been to the Stampede yet?”
    I quickly moved between these two and my wife, replying, “Gentlemen, I have no need to talk with you, goodbye.” They looked bewildered, and we then walked past them.
    I speculate they did not have good intentions when they approached in such an aggressive, disrespectful and menacing manner. I thank the Lord Jesus Christ they did not pull a weapon of some sort, but rather concluded it was in their best interest to leave us alone.
    Would we not expect a uniformed officer to pull his or her weapon to intercede in a life-or-death encounter to protect self, or another? Why then should the expectation be lower for a citizen of Canada or a visitor? Wait, I know – it’s because in Canada, only the criminals and the police carry handguns.
    Walt Wawra, Kalamazoo, Mich.

    A spokesman for the Calgary tourism services later confirmed that the two “aggressive, disrespectful and menacing” young men were, in fact, distributing free tickets for the rodeo, an event of the Calgary Stampede. Can we say that Mister Wawra was the national laughing stock of the day?
    I occasionally meet such persons here in Montreal. When I see someone on the street/sidewalk seeming like trying to find directions (like holding a map and looking all around, puzzled, generally because they are looking for the Marché Jean-Talon), I offer to help them by asking if they are looking for any particular place, letting them know when warranted that I can speak English. They are sometimes surprised but generally quite happy when I clue them out, and thank me for it. Only a very few clench their teeth, look at me as if I wanted to steal their wallet or stab them in the back, and reply a resounding NO. Do I have to mention more? Too many Americans are freaked-out paranoids. At home, and abroad. Dangerous cocktail when mixed with guns.

    Da food section

    The other day, Thursday I guess it was, I did again that lemony salmon brochette I had made earlier in the summer. Really a nice addition to my recipe portfolio (that sounds so artistic ), especially that it is so easy to make. In fact, the hardest part of it is to find salmon cut in cubes.

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    Talk of “pain doré” on Biggles’ site yesterday gave me the urge to make me some. I just happened to have a left-over half baguette which I had frozen a while ago so as not to lose it, so I brought it back to life last evening and this morning, well this almost noon, well for breakfast to make it short, I made myself some “pain doré”. Maple syrup is sold here in those 540 ml cans and I buy it at marché Jean-Talon, directly from the producer(s). Once the can is open, I transfer its contents in that jar which I keep in the fridge and where it can be kept for a long time, provided it is well capped. In the can, maple syrup stays good for years. I’ll explain the elastic around the bottle tomorrow if I have the time, along with the difference between light, medium and dark maple syrup. Right now it’s almost 22h00 and I really do have to make myself some kind of supper, which will be, essentially, cheese (what remains of the three I bought at La Vieille Europe – see preceding post), and bread and wine, in any order. Oh, and green grapes. And I was not worshipping Romney in that pic, even if on that image he seems to be worshipping himself. I was reading the rest of the pages where there was an article outlining the five possible scenario outcomes for Tuesday’s elections.

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2012/08/29

  • A Photo
    Square St-Louis – 2012.08.29 – 11h23

    Scènes de Montréal – Montreal Scenes

    Nothingness does have a face

    Excerpts from a column by Le Devoir’s foreign affairs columnist François Brousseau yesterday (August 27). Says what it says. (my translation)

    «A former governor of Massachusetts, who got elected in 2002 defending abortion, will become this week, in Tampa, Florida, the official representative at the presidential election of a Republican Party fallen into the hands of the extreme right, as never in its history.

    This man picked up by osmosis all the positions of those who, during the past year, had put themselves in his way: lower taxes for the wealthy, dismantling of the federal State, strong fight against abortion, repeal of laws about the financial sector … Without forgetting the mother promise of them all: demolish “Obamacare”, that (almost) universal health insurance, obtained after a bitter fight by the President in 2010 … and directly inspired by 2006 Massachusetts one, incidentally baptised “Romneycare.”

    The ideological metamorphosis of Mitt Romney, the former east coast liberal Republican, is a monument to political opportunism. The elusiveness of the man and his apparent inability to express strong convictions, intimate and sincere, paradoxically permitted him to obtain, by wearing them down, the resigned anointing from the party’s base.

    He achieved this feat by eliminating one after the other, the zealots, jesters and other extremists who, in the fall of 2011 to the spring of 2012, participated in the Republican beauty pageant – turned into a mad race to the extremes: Newt Gingrich, former Speaker of the House, for whom Palestinians “do not exist”, Ron Paul, who wanted to abolish the income tax, the Catholic Rick Santorum, denouncing campuses “which spread liberal ideas.”

    But now, if Romney-the-chameleon, the time of a primaries campaign, was able to control this animal gone crazy that has become the Republican Party in the Obama era … he could do it by indulging body and soul in its ideology. Saying “yes”, “yes”, and again “yes” to his outbidders from the right, be it about the economy, foreign policy or morals.

    His consecration, this week in Tampa, has all the appearances of an unconditional surrender.»

    [..]

    But this theory of a “centrist” candidate who, comes Fall, would replace the increasingly extremist Romney of the preceding 12 months does not seem to apply this time. It is not that the man would suddenly have acquired, over the months, stronger beliefs; it would rather be that his rooted opportunism, his “seduction at any price” of the Republican base and the Tea Party, made him the toy of the forces that govern today, not only his party, but all the Right in the United States.

    Forces for whom the middle class in that country – yet more impoverished than ever – is “rich”, and would be even more if only the State withdrew more from public affairs. Forces that contend that the stimulus plan of 2009, with its 700 billion in spending has not limited the damages by avoiding a full fledged depression (which is the probable reality), but rather increased the deficit without any benefit. Forces for whom a minimalist health coverage plan – as the 2010 Obama plan for 2010 – is in fact a ruinous and dangerous interference by the State.

    All these misconceptions or highly questionable ideas are, in the United States, popular, including among common folks. Mitt Romney, by choosing as his running mate a fan of anti-statism – Paul Ryan – surrendered totally to these ideas. He will therefore lead his fall campaign full swing to the Right… and not towards the Center.

    And it’s with such a program, with such friends, believe it or not, that Mitt Romney, on the evening of November 6, will rake 46, 48%, and perhaps even, perhaps even … No, don’t tell me!!!»

    This Romney guy has got to be the rock bottom pit of insignificant nothingnesss. Quite scary, when one knows he could well be elected.

    Injustice

    The people of New Orleans, who aren’t the richest of Americans let’s just say, did no merit a replay of Katrina. And when I hear Mitt’s wife say that this election is all about «the future or our children» I’m pretty sure she’s talking about hers and does not give a flying fuck about the future of the children living in New Orleans.

    Sauce? When?

    This is the time of year for Friend and me to make our yearly batch of tomato sauce. Normally it would have been a little later but circumstances have changed these plans. I bought the tomatoes on Tuesday at marché Jean-Talon, for a sauce making session to be held this Saturday, Friend being gone on a trip from Wednesday to Friday inclusively. Normally it takes between two and four days for the tomatoes to ripen to the correct level, spread on the floor. This time around, they seem to be more ready than I would want. All I hope is that they tough until Saturday. I closed the blinds in that room and keep a fan over them all the time, so it should do the trick. However we are forecasted hot temperatures again on Thursday and especially Friday, in the thirties, so I’ll have to keep an eye on things.

    Da food section

    Last Saturday Friend came for supper and I made again this delicious fresh tarragon/mushrooms/dijon mustard chicken recipe. He puts butter on his bread (which is very North American) so I keep some salted butter for him in the fridge, although I also always forget to bring it to room temperature. I personally never use butter on my bread or toasts, a habit I caught during my first trip to Europe. And the butter I use for cooking is of the unsalted persuasion. He also requested soy sauce, his idea am I quick to say, certainly not mine. Seems to me a creamy dish and soy sauce belong together as much as Mitt Romney belongs to universal health care. He also used to find it a humongous bore (and maybe even a little kinky) when I took a pic of the dish before we ate. I don’t know if it’s because I told him a few times why I was doing it (my blog and to document my own recipe book) but this time around it was not on my mind to take a pic and it was him who asked “And the pic?” Some things change at times and it’s then usually better not to ask too many questions about why they do so.

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    This Monday, since I had made some “ensalada de nopales” (nopal cactus salad), I went for something quick and simple: chipolata sausages, the nopales salad and farfalle pasta. Plus a dallop of Dijon mustard of course. The other half of that salad I will eat (or will have eaten depending on when I post this) with an “empanada de pollo” which I bought today (Wednesday) at the Chilean butcher shop on Beaubien, both of which I’ve mentioned before. If you don’t remember my mentioning this shop and their empanadas, it is really, I mean really, not important.

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    Today (that’s still Wednesday for those who would have a really, really short memory span), I had to go downtown for some medical activity so I did, using the metro. But I had elected beforehand to use this opportunity to do a bunch of errands downtown afterwards which is what I also did. I can announce that trying to find a decent pair of cargo shorts in late August in Montreal is something one should forget. Apparently, those zillions of Quebecers who flee south in winter must think about it in June. It’s just that one of my three pairs is starting to tear apart because it’s too old. Like me somewhat. That’s what I told my family doctor last week: I’m like my old car, I’m starting to fall apart. By her reaction, I’m not sure she has a sense of humor . I walked a good stretch on boulevard St-Laurent. Since I had not had breakfast, when I passed in front of La Vieille Europe, a large fine foods shop specializing in European imports, and where they have a large selection of cheeses, I decided to go on a cheese nowhere spree and buy a few to eat once home. I usually eat soft cheeses but I wanted to try some harder ones for a change. I ended up with three (the prices were friendly) which I knew nothing about, and a baguette.

    There was a piece of Murcia al vino, a Spanish goat cheese from the Murcia region (and city) in southeastern Spain. Its crust, very thin, is purple because it’s tinted with red wine . I found out it is sold in the U.S. under the brand name “The Drunken Goat”. I find rather silly to give such a name to a cheese just because it is soaked in wine, but I’m not surprised. The Amercan “market” is a special one, if you know what I mean. I’ve been to Murcia. In fact I even slept there, having arrived late at night. The next day it was a Sunday and when I left for a day trip in the surroundings in the early afternoon, the city was dead. No human being to be seen, anywhere. I was wondering in what kind of nowhere shithole I had landed in. When I came back at around 18h00 or 19h00, there were traffic jams everywhere. The city was bustling with activity and there were people all over the place, activity that would continue until very late in the evening, into the night even. That’s Spain for you. I’d return there anytime. This is purely anecdotical but after Murcia, on the road leading southbound to Almería on the Costa del Sol, you cross the Tabernas desert where many western spaghetti movies were shot.

    Then there was a Bulgarian cheese, a Kashkaval, light yellow in color and made with sheep’s milk.

    Finally, being a blue cheese slut, I had to try that Gran Bavarese. I had a hard time to find information about that one on the net. It’s a German cheese (well made in Germany at least), has an Italian name, and most pics on the net about it come from Slovenian sites. Slovenia is next to Italy but not Germany. Go figure. I think Bavarese is an old Italian family of some sort but I’m not sure. This one I still have to taste since I had plenty enough in my plate with the other two.

    I never drink alcoholic beverages in the day time (aka before 18h00), as a rule of thumb. But today, since I had cheese and bread for lunch, what the heck! (I think it was more ‘what the fuck!’ but let’s stay in classy language. ) I did not mention it above, but later on St-Laurent, in the Portuguese part, there is this pastry shop where they make and sell the best pasteis de natas (natas, for shorts) in Montreal. It means cream pastries. I bought six, because I’ll freeze some for times to come, keeping one for this lunch (along with coffee). I could have had two, but I ate half of those cheeses and all that bread, so one was deemed a more reasonable choice.

    The Spanish Murcia is on the left, the Bulgarian Kashkaval is on the right, the Gran Bavarese is in the fridge, the natas is alone in its plate and the coffee is in the Neapolitan espresso coffee maker (which is not the real Neapolitan coffee maker, the one that you flip upside down, but explaining this again will be for some other day). Which also brings to mind the question of why Anglos say Neapolitan. The place is Napoli in Italian, Naples in both French and English, so where, when and why did that extra “e” get invited??

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    Universal fight

    I thought this would go well with that sidewalk graffiti Biggles stumbled upon in his city, which read «FIGHT BACK!».

    Poster stuck by someone on a BIXI station at the corner of Boyer and Beaubien. It’s a quote by the late Pierre Falardeau, a well known and quite outspoken, that’s the least one can say, film-maker. One of his short-films, Le Temps des Bouffons (The Time of the Buffoons), more than scratched the local ‘elite’. Big brass people, many of the highest political level. The film was on Youtube, then not, then it’s back, here -> http://youtu.be/0STEvvYZtY0. For those who understand French. It’s a crying shame it’s not available in English cause what he describes in that film, everyone knows about and can relate to. Especially in these times of Republican mierda. A translated excerpt: «In Ghana, the poor eat the dogs. Here it’s dogs who eat the poor. And they take that surprised look when one of them is found in the trunk of a car.» (reference to the 1970 October crisis) and another one: «They are tall only because we are kneeling». The poster, it, refers to the current Quebec elections:

    «WE LIVE IN AN AGE WHERE SILENCE IS NOT ONLY A CRIME BUT A SUICIDE»

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2012/08/28

  • This is a protected post. I post it “protected” because I don’t care (for now) for others to read it, especially anyone from my family. Note – Protection removed (2013.01.20), after minor modifications.

    I’m going on vacations again, this time somewhat unplanned. It’s a fine nine-story all-included resort located downtown Montreal, going by the name of Hôpital St-Luc. I don’t know about the service and the food but I do know there’s no beach. It’s also coincidentally where my father died, on the 9th floor, in 1971.

    In December of 2010, since I had turned 60 and was a former smoker (from 1966 to 1983), my family doctor sent me for a routine lung X-Ray. They found a tiny suspicious spot in the bottom part of the left lung. Since then it’s been scan after X-ray after scan, CTs, TEPs (PET in English), in whatever order, seven in all including that July biopsy done under CT scan and which I mentioned in a recent post. Last year, I was referred to the pneumology department of the Hôtel-Dieu which took charge of my case. Last year also, the spot had minutely changed, but in such a small way that it was not significant enough to carry any conclusion (it could have been (and hoped) to be the remnants of a long-gone lesion), so it was agreed that I would be kept under surveillance for three years, with a yearly scan. This spring, that scan showed that the spot had gotten bigger by 1 mm. Not much, but enough to cancel former plans and set off the alarm. Then followed the biopsy I mentioned earlier. Friday, the surgeon who had ordered the biopsy called me at home to tell me it was a tumor and that he was to schedule me to be operated on next September 4, which is also election day here in Québec.

    If all goes well, I will be a full week in hospital, followed by a six to eight week convalescence at home, of what I’ve read in another Montreal hospital’s leaflet found on the internet but dating back to 2002. Providing that I’m still alive of course. I was told that there is a 5% chance of death from phlebitis or pulmonary embolism (phlébite ou embolie pulmonaire) following such an intervention, due essentially to prolonged inactivity in the legs which can generate the formation of blood clots which then travel upwards. I don’t expect this to be a problem considering I’m not in that bad of a shape and how I recovered rather easily from previous tests, but 5% remains 5%, not 0%. And thrombosis ran on my mother’s side. Luckily I’m a lot more father, his side specializing in the liver area.

    I’m kind of glad in a way that all this comes to an outcome, because I’ve had that Sword of Damocles hanging over my head for nearly two years now and frankly I’ve had it. To this uncertainty was added the fact that in that period I could never plan any trip fairly in advance, let alone planning longer winter stays in Mexico, never knowing if and when I would be called for a test or an appointment or something. The same goes for a bunch of other activities, for that matter. And I’m not even sure if after this operation it will the end of it or if it’s not a pandora’s box, since I wasn’t told more by the surgeon (yet… I’m scheduled to see him Friday). I do expect some news from someone this week. After all, I just can’t just pop up at the hospital on Tuesday morning and say, Hi, I’m here for that cut, check on your list. I also need info about the after period. The surgeon said that after my release from the hospital, I will be autonomous. Does that mean I can go to the toilet by myself or that I can go on errands to buy myself something to eat. It’s not really the same thing, isn’t it? I know from experience that these people kind of forget that some people live alone (lots, in Montreal) and don’t necessarily have some family members to take care of these things for a while. [Addendum: I took matters in my own hands today (Tuesday) and called the surgeon's secretary. She confirmed that it will be the hospital which will call me about when to get there and associated information, and that my already scheduled appointment with the surgeon on Friday still remains and that I'll be able to ask all I will want to ask then].

    Anyways, I kind of had other plans for my retirement, let’s just say.

    I’m also rather pissed. I stopped smoking thirty years ago. What was the point? And if it’s not the tobacco, then what caused it? Overexposure to the foul smells coming out from the daily news?

    So that’s that. I don’t want to talk too much about this, not being particularly prone on pathos. Besides, I would also have to talk about ‘other’ stuff like some ongoing thing about the liver and my thyroid which both have also been under regular for the first, and yearly for the second, surveillance, with their own load of echographies, magnetic resonance imagings, and the likes. At some point one gets fed up. This is why I hesitate to warn my family. I am a very emotional person but am also what some dub as being “built strong”, aka gifted with psychological strength. I’ve been through some ordeals in my life which would have had some others end up emotionally shredded to pieces (like some members of that family, for instance). But for this, I must deal with those things alone (alone here includes Friend). The last thing I need is for having to answer telephone calls from all eight of them including my 88 year old mother and having to explain it all over and over, or someone from my family popping up in the door frame of my hospital room with gloom and doom in their eyes, especially that they all live elsewhere except for one brother who doesn’t care to see me as of late for reasonns of his own, and a few nephews and a niece with whom I have rare contacts. I want to go through this by convincing myself it’s all but a bad dream that’ll be over in a few months (why not?), and that this tumor is not malignant (still an unknown, to me at least), and however well intentioned (or not) they will simply screw up that plan. In other words, I’m trying to not linger on it all the time, to forget about it the more I can. I’ve been working on this post since Saturday and each time I come to it I wish I hadn’t. My take is that if it’s serious, there’s nothing I could do about it (nor the family), and if it’s not, then I would have put my tits in the wringer for nothing (and theirs). In short, I don’t want to hear (be reminded) of it, except on a joking level. And I strongly suspect they won’t be able to joke about it. For once, I’ll put MY feelings before theirs. Friend can. He’s got a fantastic sense of humor, that’s one of the reasons we connect so well together.

    When I was a young university student, or college rather since I was about 17 at the time I think, I had this theory that laughter, or being able to laugh about things, was the best medicine, or life recipe if you wish, that there was on this planet. I still think the same (although I failed miserably at times to put it into practice). When I die, I will probably be cremated, but if by some bureaucratic screw-up I would end up in a cemetary feeding plants by the roots, the only inscription I would want on my tombstone would be some French equivalent of «WTF? »

    If all goes well (what a stupid expression), that is if nothing is postponed (still waiting for a confirmation from the hospital), I won’t be showing up here for some length of time yet to be determined, starting around September 3rd. Hopefully it won’t be for more than a week. In the meantime, I will try to show up and make an ass of myself as usual: it’s part of the diversion plan.

    Now, I’ve had this pic in the drawer since last Spring and was waiting for a convenient time to post it. Isn’t this just a finely convenient time or what? It was taken during my last trip to Mexico and of which I had a bundle of photos I had promised to post (gosh I’m not reliable) but never had the time (or got) to post either. The other ones in the pic are people from my hometown who pass their winters down there, as I had planned to do some years ago and couldn’t because of what’s above. We can see in the window the reflection of that beautiful Banderas Bay, with just across it the city of Puerto Vallarta. I never posted any pic of me on the net before, for privacy reasons, but in good part also because I speak my mind about political issues quite bluntly at times and that I don’t trust at all the American government, nor the Canadian one for that matter as of late, because some of their (so-called) security people can’t differentiate people with opinions from people with bad intentions. I don’t care at all for them to have a pic of me on their sniffing list. On the other hand, I owe to those faithfuls who have followed me over the years to at least prove I do exist. I do have a small pony tail which does not show on the pic, mostly because it’s a frontal pic, but also that there’s less and less hair to be ponied, and that ‘less’ also happens to become thinner and thinner as years go by. . Speaking of years going by, anyone remembers this song by the Montreal group Mashmakhan? [1]

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    [1] In Wikipedia they say it’s a Toronto band but it’s grossly stretching it. They are Montrealers and played in Montreal from 1960 to 1969, under different band names. They were brought to Toronto (and even that I’m not sure of, maybe more taken over) by a record company which changed their band name, for the release of that song.

2012/08/22

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    Petite Italie (boul. St-Laurent) – 2012.08.18

    Scènes de Montréal – Montreal Scenes

    Dhee Zaster

    Well, maybe disaster is pushing it too far in the ropes, but still the same this has got to be, as far as I can remember, the lousiest two weeks I’ve ever spent travelling. Ever.

    All I can say is that I am Dhee Lighted to be back in Montreal, and that’s a euphemism.

    I’ll give more signs of life [1] soon.

    [1] Because I’m indeed alive and well (somewhat) and, unlike Jacques Brel, not living in Paris where apparently they are now having the flip side (flop?) of what I had.

2012/08/05

  • A Photo
    Rue Sherbrooke – 2012.07.22 – 16h47

    Scènes de Montréal – Montreal Scenes

    Above

    Part of the crowd heading back or going somewhere after the July 22 march, here on Sherbrooke near Jeanne-Mance. The police tried to tell them (well, ‘us’ actually ) with loudspeakers to walk on the sidewalk because the street was open to traffic but they (we) ignored them. Eventually the police abandoned, since it was quite obvious that most of them were simply returning to the point of departure, at Place Émilie-Gamelin, following the same modus operandi as for the march itself, that is using the route of their immediate choice.

    It’s hot, can you type it for me?

    It’s very hot today (Saturday). Coming back from marché Jean-Talon I went to the weather site (at 17h15) and it said 33°C effective temperature and 40°C considering the humidex factor. Humidex is the summer version of winter’s wind chill factor, or how it feels like combined with either the humidity (summer) or the wind (winter). A good part of an air conditioner’s job is to remove the humidity, as anyone having seen one dripping knows. I used to mess around with a conversion site when I wanted to mention these degrees in Faren Heights and it just occured to me that those two little squares with a C and an F in them on the weather site were precisely designed for that function. So it’s also 91°F and 104°F, translated in anglo-saxon. This was a week of discovery for me since some days ago, I also found an alternate way of making those ° little circles appear on the screen. Before I had to press <^>then or and then both the ˚ and the C/F appeared together. Now all I have to do is press <;>. AltCar is also known as . And bonus of bonuses, that little circle is the real degree circle, being somewhat lower and level with the top of the C or F characters. This is the wrong circle I used before ˚F and this is the correct one °F, as a glance to the weather site confirmed. Now, isn’t all this so ever extraordinary. Not only can we talk about weather as a conversation filler on blogs, but we can do it using the right circle. Progess is fascinating.

    It’s like for the Euro sign, for example. This week I had to use it in a comment and gee, how do you make it appear? I have the £ Pound, the ¥ Yen and the $ Dollar on my keyboard but no € Euro. After some instensive research, I mean a good 3 to 5 minutes, I finally found the way to write it in HTML. You have to type this, without the underscores: _&_#_8364_;_ . Not user friendly but they say it works, and it did. They also recommended using this instead of other means for blogs etc. What I gather is that like in Windows, some characters in some editors are not hard coded. They have to be recreated at display time and on the Net, this sometimes screws up. Well, no later than a half hour ago, ta-dam! drumroll! ring the bells! blow the horns! I found that my keyboard did have the € sign, it was just not printed on it. And not only that, it has two. One is <4> which gives this € and the other is which it gives this €. Frankly they look like identical twins to me. Why there’s two, search me (but only above the belt).

    Keyboards are like pounds and kilos. For some reason that beats me, some people don’t want to make their lives easier. You can get an English keyboard which is quite limited (ok, I’ll say ‘basic’ not to hurt anyone’s sensitivities ) or you can get a multilingual keyboard which includes that very limited basic English keyboard with the same characters but with half a ton of extra characters from different languages like Spanish, French and even Scandinavian, plus a bunch of everyday practical signs like © ¢ µ ± ♪ ® and so on. It even has those kinky ⅜ ⅝ and ⅞ that only anglos use with their inches and pounds. Can’t be more accomodating than that, for gawd sakes! Sure it needs getting adjusted to, the Enter key is not the same size… which is considered like a terrorist attack reading most comments on this page. I kind of noticed that those who do or plan to communicate with other people(s), like from other cultures or continents, didn’t mind the adjustment. Goes to say…

    Now, we can go a long way starting with a 33°C, don’t we?

    This is the standardized (1992 CAN/CSA Z243.200-92 standard) Canadian multilingual keyboard, with the € sign added in 1999. It is mandatory for Federal and Québec employees, and it is the one I use. On Wikipedia they say that companies use it also for its ease of operation (well, what do you know) and to standardize the keyboards they use. The wording on the keys is replaced by symbols, so it’s universal. What the symbols mean is shown in the pics below, but not printed on the keys. If you look for a DEL (Delete) key, forget it. That’s not French nor Spanish. But that symbol with three slanted bars is, in whatever language. For someone or anyone else like me who uses the QWERTY layout and who has to or wants to write in more than one of the three French, Englsh or Spanish languages, this keyboard is the best in the world by far. And I’m not even talking of all the extra characters.

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    August 2, 1971 ± 19:30

    «Dad is dead». I was taking a nap and my brother entered the bedroom and from the doorframe brought me back abruptly to reality. In fact what he did say was «Dad est mort». We always called my father «Dad» because in those days we were second-class citizens as all Acadians in New-Brunswich who did not live in the Acadian Peninsula were, and second-class citizens called their father «Dad», not «Papa». Nowadays, no one in my family lets anyone treat us as second-class citizens anymore. This creates an extra difficulty when we refer to my father because referring to him as «Dad» is now not even thinkable, and referring to him as «Papa» makes it sound like we’re talking about somebody else. That’s what happens when you’re still there two hundred and fifty years after having been ethically cleansed. You can’t even talk about your own father to your siblings. Or even talk to him, in your thoughts.

    My father never had to call his father «Dad». That’s because he came from the Acadian Peninsula, a remote area in north-eastern New-Brunswick, a region not very populated and which is almost 100% French-speaking Acadian. Why? Acadians, who were expert farmers, and who came from the Poitou and other central regions of France, had settled more south around the Bay of Fundy (the one with its famed high tides), and especially on its southern shores in what is nowadays Nova Scotia. In 1755 and until 1762, they were deported by boats, families separated, their land stolen, and were dumped all along the North England coast where no one wanted them, or in prisons in England, and some others shipped back from England to France where they were not welcomed either. Thousands died on those ships. Today, this kind of operation is called “ethnic cleansing” and “massacre”. People prefer to call it, for reasons I disagree with, a toned-down Le Grand Dérangement (The Great Upheaval). I prefer calling a cat a cat.

    «American historians consider that, of a total population estimated between 12 000 and 18 000 Acadians in 1755, between 7 500 and 9 000 perished between 1755 and 1763, either by the effects of the deportation, either trying to escape it. (from Wikipedia). All this because the Acadians wanted to remain neutral in the conflict then opposing France and England (the Seven-Year war). They therefore refused to plead allegiance to the King of England when asked to.

    Those who tried to escape fled north, often with the help of Natives. It is estimated that nearly one million Quebecers have Acadian roots. Some of those who were deported in New England finished by ending up in Louisiana, along with others who were sent to England and who ended up in France near Chatellerault where they didn’t know what to do with them and gave them some of the worst lands they could find. That area, called La ligne Acadienne, I also visited, this time planned, in 1993,. Eventually Spain paid for seven ships to send many of them to Louisiana, in 1785. I think most of today’s Cajuns are descendants of these latest. The others who stayed in New England tried to survive.

    Even before the Seven-year war was over, the Brits realized they had sawed the branch they were sitting on. The Acadians were excellent farmers and had highly perfectionized a technique they had brought with them initially from France and which is called “aboiteaux” [1], a technique using dikes covering wooden canals blocked on the river side by an automatically shutting door at high tide, and used to dry up marshlands along rivers. Soils claimed this way are five times more productive than soils claimed through deforestation, and most of the land in those days was forests. This system was particularly useful because of the very high tides in the area. The English had no clue how these worked, and for this and other practical reasons like lack of farm workers or to whom do you sell what you grow on the land you stole if you sent everyone who lived there before to die on ships or in New England, or simply the fear of lacking the population needed to protect themselves in view of rising independence desires in New England, they offered to the Acadians to come back. Many did because it was their land and their home and they were rejected to start with in New England. However when they came back, their lands were not given back to them. Either they worked for the British now owning their lands or they headed north to regions along the shores, lined with agriculturally inhospitable lands beaten by the winds and which no one else wanted. That’s how many Acadians ended up in the Acadian Peninsula and had to become fishermen to survive. And excellent ones at that as much as they were in agriculture. Fisheries is still today the main economic activity in that region, if I’m not mistaken.

    While they were in exile, and for almost a century after the deportation, Acadians lived in a social no man’s land, having no institutions or means of communication of their own and therefore were oblivious to each other. Their heritage and culture was transmitted from generation to generation, by word of mouth. In the 1880s, they were finally starting to get something together and they congregated in Memramcook, near Moncton, to give themselves institutions, like hospitals, universities, a national anthem, a flag and a National Day, August 15, Our Lady of Assumption day.

    Today, most Acadians and their descendants live, like the Jews, in a diaspora. But those who are still there, in Acadia, that borderless homeland in Eastern Canada, those Acadians are anything but dead yet.

    If I hold a grudge? Damn right I hold a grudge. Despite repeated requests, no excuse whatsoever ever came from the British Crown for that massacre, while some were handed out for other events of the same nature elsewhere on the planet. But also because they’re still at it today, two hundred and fifty years later. Not the Brits of course, but those they left behind. Of course, they’re not burning houses or deporting people nowadays, they are rather constantly blowing on the little cultural flame that the Acadians try to keep alive. Nothing is ever given. Every right, still today, has to be fought for. Not only to be gained, but also to be kept.

    The deportation started in the small village of Grand-Pré, where all the Acadian men of the village were congregated in the church to be told they were being deported and their land confiscated. Today a place bearing the name of Grand-Pré still exists. Some decades ago, they built a replica (sort of) of the church, with a statue of Évangeline in front of it, that fictional character invented by American poet Henry Wadsworth Longfellow and having become a symbol of the Acadian tragedy, and its immediate surroundings is now a Canadian National Historic site. It also became a UNESCO World Heritage site about a month ago. All the area covered in that UNESCO site is a collection of luxurious lands and a superb landscape, just like it was and made so by the Acadians before their deportation started in 1755. Except that today, those who own and live very well out of them, mind you, are the descendants of those who stole them from us. And they are those who pocket the cash that tourism to Grand-Pré brings about. For me, it’s adding insult to injury. Many Acadians I know have been to Grand-Pré, as some sort of pilgrimage. Not me. Not for now anyways, still too much anger. Maybe one day, when I’ll be more serene…

    The Acadians continued to be deported until 1762, one year before the official end of the Seven-Year War in 1763, with the Treaty of Paris. Two years earlier, and one year after the fall of Québec City in 1759, France sent a little flotilla to help, but it was too little, too late. They had to take refuge in the large Baie des Chaleurs (Chaleur Bay) and eventually were forced, by a British flotilla sent after them, to retreat where the bay takes it origin, the Restigouche river (Ristigouche). That is where the last naval battle of the Seven-Year war took place. Seeing they were losing, the French purposely sank most of their ships. One of them, the Machault, was recovered from the past in the sixties, probably protected by the muddy waters, and its remains are now on display at the National Historic Site, The Battle of the Ristigouche. Another one, the Marquis de Malauze, had English prisoners on board and was abandoned. It was burned and sunk by the English, after having recovered their men. Parts of if were recovered in the late 1930s by a Capucin priest who was in charge of their mission in the Amerindian reserve of Listuguj. There were many Acadians in the area at the time, having recently resettled there after having fled the deportation. They had named their settlement Petite-Rochelle, by the name of the French port city of La Rochelle, from where most Acadians had boarded to come to America. I went to La Rochelle in 1997, in an unplanned visit. I took the small pedestrian ferry going to the island of Ré. I sat looking back, wanting to see the towers of the port of La Rochelle slowly fade away, as my ancestors had seen them fade away when they left for that great unknown, in the 17th century. Can’t say it wasn’t an emotional moment.

    All their houses in Petite-Rochelle were burned down by the British after that battle. Acadians were not up to their first house burning. They just spread farther, on both shores of the Restigouche river and of the Baie des Chaleurs, in New Brunswick on one side, and in Quebec’s Gaspé Peninsula on the other side, or in the woods. Nowadays the descendants of Acadians in the region are numerous (I’d say the majority of the population) and have brought a lot to the betterment of it. I was told last year that they were to erect a monument on the New Brunswick side, in the town of Campbellton, to commemorate and celebrate the Acadian contribution to the region. Asked if I cared to contribute financially, I sent a cheque.

    Why do I have the impression I have already posted about all of this a few years back? Probably because I did. Needed to rant I guess.

    My mother’s house, and the place where my family has lived since 1959, is located on top of a hill, in a town which despite being in a region overwhelmingly Acadian, has always been a shithole for them, being populated, by a slight majority (then, now it may have changed), by people of English, Scottish or Irish origin, some of whom woke up in the middle of the night to devise ways to get rid of anything French or Acadian. I exaggerate, but barely. When the drapes were closed and three or four cars lined the street in front of our neighbor’s house, we knew that they were plotting something, like making sure that if a new school was to be built, the English would get it first, stuff like that. Ever heard of the Grand Orange Lodge? It’s a soft version of the KKK. They hate Catholics, and even more when they speak French. That’s the atmosphere I grew up in back in the sixties. My music teacher supplied by the school board barely spoke French (if she even did, it’s been so long…). I spoke no English and in those days, if you did not understand English you were considered a sub something. I have no basic musical culture because of this. Nowadays it’s not as bad. New Brunswick became officially bilingual in 1969, because for the first (and last) time in its history an Acadian became Premier and despite numerous death threats, he dedicated the ten years he was in office (1960-1970) to correct some of the scandalous inequities there were between the Acadians and the Anglos at the time. Just as a side note, when my father visited the house we bought back in 1959, he had to do it by night otherwise the Anglos would have noticed and ganged up to make sure one of them bought it first. In that part of the town, any Acadian was an Acadian too many.

    When I go visit my mother, if I walk a few short blocks, here and there in between the trees and the houses, I can see the Restigouche river flowing below, the interprovincial bridge, Québec on the other side with the Amerindian reserve of Listuguj (Ristigouche) just left of the bridge, and then more to the left the area where was La Petite-Rochelle in 1760 and in front of which the Machault and the Marquis de Malauze sank. That’s where I’m heading to, most likely next Tuesday. I rented a car for two weeks so I’ll be gone possibly until August 20. On the 15th, I’ll therefore be in Acadia for our National Day, I mean the National Day of my first identity, and I will attend the unveiling ceremonies of that monument I talked about above.

    I hope it’s made tough, because some day maybe it’s all that will be left. Many Acadians who lived in villages in the close-by mountains are now moving to the town, and they are slowly being assimilated. They still speak French, although littered with English words if not whole conversations, but as per lifestyles and cultural references go, they are more and more Anglos and that includes the dark side of American crapola, like an astounding rate of overweight youngsters, to name only one. I left that town in 1975 and as far as I am concerned, it’s been downhill ever since. This is absolutely not the case across the river in Québec, where Acadians are proud of their heritage and where assimilation to English is nowhere on the agenda. Of course in Québec no one is in a situation where he’s being made to think that he’d be better off and that it would be so much easier for everyone if he just melted inside the English majority. In Quebec, it’s ‘another’ majority, as we know. Stepping on your culture and joining the majority is what they call “harmony” in New Brunswick. So if you ask for your rights, you are accused of “breaking the harmony” that supposedly exists. When slaves bend to their masters, there is always harmony. It doesn’t mean it’s recommended.

    In the remote case of Quebec ever becoming independent, that interprovincial bridge would become an international bridge. In many ways, it already is. When I cross it southbound, although I was raised in that town, I have the impression I’m entering another country than mine. And when I cross it northbound and re-enter Québec, I feel I’m back home. As SNL’s Church Lady would have said: «Well! Ain’t that special!» Yes, it’s quite special indeed. Not surprising. Just special.

    [1] Aboiteau (plural Aboiteaux):

    The principle of an aboiteau is not only to prevent the sea to invade the lands at high tide, but also and more importantly to evacuate at low tide the water accumulated through rainfall and the melting of snow. Thus, the recuperated lands are slowly ridden of their salt content, washed kind of by those repeated rains and snowfalls. The Acadian aboiteaux (this is a euphemism: aboiteaux ‘are’ an Acadian design) were generally located on the shores of rivers near the sea, or those of the sea itself, and were used to reclaim land which consisted mostly of marshlands regularly flooded by the salt water tides. They built dikes to separate the land from the water, and under them, they built wooden boxes which acted as canals and which had on the river side a clapper door that shut automatically at high tide, preventing the sea water to enter inside, but let the water flow in the other direction at low tide. This technique besides claiming land from marshlands, also produced soils very rich in nutrients. It was already used in France, but the Acadians perfected it greatly because of the very high tides (the world’s highest) in the Bay of Fundy area where they lived. This also explains the presence of so many marshlands regularly flooded by the tides. Some of these dikes were large enough to eventually be flattened on their top and become roads.

    Translation from the French Wikipedia entry for “Aboiteau”: «This operating principle already existed in other parts of the world, especially in the west-central regions of France, especially the Poitou marshes which were worked in the late sixteenth and seventeenth century by Dutch engineers, called by Sully, who have drained much of the “wet marshes” of that region. The technique of the withholding valve was then known in that region from which the Acadians came mostly, but the aboiteau is a particular evolution of this system which had to take into account the particularities of Acadia and Quebec [where many fleeing Acadians settled after the deportation], namely a harsh climate and tides among the highest in the world. [..] Nobody can say who invented the aboiteau. This is probably a collective work that has been developed and improved by Acadians over several generations following trial and error experiences. .

    There are pictures/drawings on that Wiki page -> here, but for the nec plus ultra on the matter, and in English mind you, I have just found this page which is so complete that I wouldn’t have bothered writing any of the above had I known its existence. Here’s that link which says it all -> Link that says it all. My French readers may just click on Français when on that site to access the original French page.

    From that site, this paragraph. The bold characters are mine:

    Starting in the mid 1760s, Brithish authorities allowed Acadians to return to Acadia, from which many of them had been exiled. By then, the marshes that they and their ancestors had drained with the use of aboiteaux were now owned by Anglo-American or British settlers. Ironically, in 1760, Governor Charles Lawrence was obliged to put the Deportation on hold, for the hurricane of November 1759 had greatly damaged the aboiteaux and levees of the Acadian marshes and the governor had great need of the remaining Acadians and their knowledge of the aboiteau system. Hence, many Acadian families ended up in Port-Royal, Pigiguit and Beauséjour as prisoners of war. Many Acadians had to work on mending and building aboiteaux and levees for the benefit of the new owners of their former lands. By showing them how the aboiteau system worked, they forfeited to the invaders what was left of their former life from before the Deportation. It is one of the greatest tragedies of the Deportation because, not only did they lose their property, the Acadians were forced to reveal to their usurpers the secrets of a technology developed and perfected by their forefathers.

    If I hold a grudge? Don’t ask.

    Da food section

    I had four or five pics for this section but I don’t have the time to upload and comment them now. Maybe tomorrow if I have the time, but I doubt it. Besides, it was all very ordinary.

    Elections

    Quebecers have been called to the polls for September 4h. It’s gonna be a nasty campaign. I’m glad I’m getting away from it for a while.

    Mascara

    This week it was Divers/Cité week in Montreal, a word play about diversity using diverse and city. We have two gay pride weeks here, the official Gay Pride days later in August, and this one which is LGBT and whatever other letters there are. This was the twentieth edition of DIVERS/CITÉ. As is customary in Montreal, it also has major free outdoor events. One is 1, Boulevard des Rêves (1, Dreams Boulevard), a variety show (13th year) featuring mostly singers of differents genres (that was on Thursday). Another one was, yesterday, the fifteenth Mascara, La Nuit des Drags (Mascara, the night of the drags). Its organizer, drag queen Mado Lamotte, says it’s the largest drag queen show on earth. I wanted to attend, not because I’m that fond of drag queens, but because it really is quite a show, but more so because this year Divers/Cité moved from Place Émilie-Gamelin and its Gay Village surroundings to set stage smack in the center of Old Port in old Montreal, on Quai (quay) Jacques-Cartier. Just seeing all those tourists and visitors to the old port with their kids strolling by and seeing this show would have been a delight all by itself. I didn’t go to any show because I was caught doing other stuff, like editing this for example. I have to say that it’s so hot and humid these days that one does not feel very inclined to roam the streets of the city. I read that they had better attendance than past years. I’m glad. I was afraid the move far from the Gay Village would hurt the event, but apparently not. I kind of like this city. Don’t know if I mentioned this before.

    Rant on rent

    I have to be at the car renters place at 9h00 tomorrow to pick up the rented car. I’ll go by bus (20 minutes). Having had a car since like forever, I never had to rent a car in my whole life except when there was a family reunion for my mother’s 80th birthday in 1984 and my car was not fit for the trip (800 km one way). Brakes had to be done and other stuff. I had reserved a small car, especially because they drink a lot less gas and on this kind of trip, it’s a major concern. When I got at the car renter to pick it up, they had no small car, nor intermediate, nor full sized. For the same price, they offered me one of those huge SUVs that make about 2 miles a gallon. I politely told the guy he could go fuck himself and I had to make the trip with my own car, praying most of the trip that it would tough the run. I didn’t have time to look elsewhere, I had to be at destination that same day. Considering I suffer from anxiety somewhat by nature, and that if you have 3,000 people in a room and there’s a bad luck to be drawn, the chances I end up with the winning ticket are 2999 to one, I’ll only be at ease when I leave the car lot and everything is under control. But first I must make sure to wake up in time.

    Marilyn

    I clearly remember when Marilyn Monroe died, fifty years ago to this day. We were at our summer cottage on the river and I remember hearing about it from another kid I was madly in love with. I was 12. For some reason I thought I was older. Then again, I can also see in my mind the outside speaker of the small boarding school I was attending a little more than a year later, when it told us that Kennedy had been shot. We did not know then that Kennedy had an affair with the late Marilyn. Not me at least.